Thursday, February 26, 2015
Come Back To Me, 90's!
Wednesday, February 25, 2015
And Your Beautiful Sky, The Light You Bring Falls On Me
Tuesday, February 24, 2015
Wedding Bell Almost Blues
Y: H and I just had a stupid ass fight and now I'm eating my feelings.
Me: Well, you're gonna be a Mrs. Eating your feelings will be all you have left soon enough.
Y: Haha.
Me: What was it about?
Y: Some chick he invited to come to the wedding. They've been friends for years but she lives in Sweden so I've only met her like once in passing. I don't know why he's inviting people when there isn't even a date yet.
Me: Because he wants a date but he doesn't want to rush you...or fight about it...so good job.
Y: lol What should I do? Leave him and then you and he and Gio could all run off together?
Me: LOL. Fuck you. What Gio and I have cannot be shared with just anyone.
Y: LOL. I don't know, man...think you should all dress up as the cast of Magic Mike 2 for Halloween.
Me: LOL. Haaaaaeeeeelllll NO. Just talk to him, tell him you were an idiot and move on. Life's too short, yo.
Y: After 33 years together, you probably deserve to hear this - you're right.
Me: lol And in another 33 years, you can tell me that again. Now, back to this chick he invited. Is she hot, single...?
Y: LMAO. You're such a whore.
Me: I'm asking for you! So you won't be overshadowed at your own wedding or something.
Y: LOL. "Or something". At least lie convincingly.
Me: LOL. I know, I'm awful. A disgrace to my gender.
Y: You're not the only one considering I can't make it down a damn aisle.
Me: You're right. You're the bigger disgrace. You should be ashamed.
Y: I should be ashamed?? You're trying to hit on a woman whose name you don't even know lol.
Me: lol Ya'll be funny. Thinking minor details like name and ish be important.
Y: lol Yes, I'm the bigger gender disappointment. Bc clearly you got a handle on the rest of your male traits. You impeccably manscaped caveman, you.
Me: ...I hope H leaves you and you end up alone.
Y: Hey, if I'm ending up there, you're ending up there.
Another pre-wedding crisis averted. On to the next.
Now And Again She's More Than A Friend, Why Don't You Just Throw Me That Line?
Monday, February 23, 2015
The Bad & The Better
During this time, everything was in this grey area and she didn't care to resolve it, so I followed her lead and stopped reaching out. But it took me a long time to wise up and do so because every time I told myself I wouldn't respond or reach out, I turned around and did just that hours later. It wasn't until I stopped that she seemed to grasp how serious I was about being on the edge and about to leave. She tried to claim she thought ignoring me and the situation would somehow make me have a come to Jesus moment, realize I was madly in love with her and commit to her for the long haul and so she stood her ground about "needing" that...but never made the decision to leave when she didn't get it. She assumed not speaking to me, ignoring what I tried to say to her and generally doing whatever the fuck she wanted would produce this result of me realizing I couldn't live without her. Yeah, I don't get the logic either but that was true of many things about BP. Her brilliant plan backfired majorly when I threw the curveball of saying I was going to see other people. She played it off as no big thing and never asked me not to, hell, she never even acted like it mattered so I went ahead with it. Mind you, I wasn't trying to go out and find anyone else, but I wasn't going to turn down anyone that interested me. I was very clear that if she wanted to talk about the state of our affair and/or work things out, she could let me know and I would be open to that, but I wasn't going to initiate a damn thing anymore and I certainly wasn't going to wait on her decision to grace me with a minute of her time like some lost puppy. She stuck to her belief that I would come running back when I saw what else was out there. Funniest thing happened though - I didn't miss her at all. Almost immediately after I decided to, for lack of a better term, take back my power, this calm washed over me. My blood pressure went down significantly, I wasn't walking around with a clenched jaw all the time and I began sleeping a lot better than I had in years. She surfaced with the occasional text, always containing some kind of BS about her uber-busy life and saying she missed me, though still had no idea when her schedule would allow her to work things out. Instead of shooting off a bunch of annoyed or angry texts at the same old shtick as I always had in the past, I started taking it all in stride and being very short in my replies. This finally got her on the phone, but she still seemed less than interested in resolving anything, not unless I had that one big realization she swore was on the way. I firmly believe she dug the ego boost she got from me begging her for shit and when she saw that her grip on me was loosening considerably, she decided she could half ass it and bring me back into the fold. Unfortunately for her, I did not take the bait. Also unfortunate for her was that I finally began following through on dating other people and realized how fucked up my thinking had become as a result of my association with BP. She'd taken me from being this happy, on a high kinda dude all the way down to the gutter of nasty fights and feeling like absolutely nothing and worth nothing, all in the span of a few years. The reason for this was simple, she needed me to be down on her level in order to gain control and to manipulate me into what she wanted me to do and be for her. And it was so subtle that I didn't even realize it was happening until I cared too much, making it impossible to walk away for awhile.
When the Youngin and I first began dating, I was honest about the whole BP thing and how I was single but had this other thing lingering. I wasn't in love, but for whatever reason, I was still hanging on, maybe out of habit. We both knew given our age difference that we weren't exactly going to last for the long haul, so she didn't care what else I had going on. I think she believed we'd be more of a ships in the night situation than anything else, and I probably thought that as well. But we really hit it off and enjoyed spending time together as friends. The romantic part of it lasted off and on for a few months, and sometimes flares up still, but more than anything we've ended up with a wonderful friendship. The Youngin is wise beyond her years, an old soul as they say, and she helped me begin moving on from BP. She did this for no other reason than to see me survive. It would've been easy to chalk my issues up as being too much and walk away and find someone with less baggage. But she stuck it out. And she asked some thought-provoking questions. Why was I in something that was no longer growing me as a person? Why was I wasting my time with someone I knew I could never spend my life with? And most importantly, why didn't I see what I brought to the table in a relationship? My self-esteem had taken major hits from BP, so much so that it was completely foreign to me when the Youngin was nice and courteous to me. When you think about it, that's pretty sad. The Youngin challenged me in so many ways and almost dared me to pull myself out of the hole I was in, helping me along the way whenever I needed it. She was and continues to be wonderful to me, even though I probably don't deserve it.
Not long after the Youngin and I split for good-ish, I began dating Lu, a client of ours. This was an almost perfect scenario for where I was at the time because Lu was in and out of town a lot, meaning we could keep things casual. She was also 20 years older than the Youngin, making us too far apart in age to end up in something long-term (by her own admission). She got a slightly improved version of me than the Youngin did, but she challenged me just as much. By now, BP and I were officially split, though she still contacted me every now and again with various excuses. Lu wanted to know why I even bothered to read the messages, why I didn't just purge BP and her negativity from my life. After she said that, it stuck in my mind every time BP sent me anything and helped me stick to my guns and not respond. I knew it wouldn't take much for her to lure me back into the fold if I let her, she always was a charmer, but I just couldn't be a part of it anymore. Lu asked what came to mind when she asked why I believed BP and I would never work and the first thing that came to mind was that I could never have kids with her. BP's family is a mess and had always given me pause about a future together. While I always knew I could keep Miss N away from them since she was my kid, any children we had together would be a part of BP's family and would no doubt spend time with them. And that was scary as fuck. Lu said that should seal it then, if I can't see myself having a future with this person, even just being myself with this person, then I should let it die completely. And I proceeded to do just that.
I wrote over the holidays of spending time with an ex, K, while I was home with the family. We had a chance run in at about this time last year and while it was just a quick one, it was like all the negativity from our past together dissipated. When we met, she was just out of a divorce and had a young son and I was, of course, a mess. In hindsight, we both should've not been in any relationship. She was exploring being single for the first time since her early-20's and I was, well, a mess. We were bi-coastal with her on the Left Coast so we pretty much only saw each other when she came my way and I didn't ask questions about what she did while we were apart and neither did she. I assumed she was seeing other people, I heard rumors from a mutual friend, but I didn't much care. We had a good time but I wasn't thinking about the future back then. Still, it ended badly when I confronted her about being almost in a full blown relationship with some other dude and her denying it, even though I knew for a fact it was true. I ended it, she proceeded to...well, try and get my attention by resorting to stalker-ish behavior, even though she was in something else. We didn't talk at all until that meeting last year. I think our whole issue was youth and stupidity and it's obvious that neither of us are who we were back then. We ran into each other again over the holidays, this time in our hometown, and hung out as friends and it ended up providing the last little push I needed to leave BP behind. K is about six months removed from the end of an engagement so she knew what I was still dealing with, and that was the loss of someone I considered a friend, maybe even moreso than a lover. In the end, we were little more than strangers but what I was still mourning was the friendship, not the romantic part. She was terrible to me as romantic partner, but much nicer back when we were friends and not yet into the thick of our time together. I was having trouble reconciling this person with the ugly one I ended up leaving behind. K's ex was also a friend and she found herself surprisingly thrilled about the end of their engagement because they agreed to maintain their friendship and had been doing so successfully. She said, knowing what I do now about how BP can turn nasty on a dime, and knowing the company she keeps as friends (they're not the greatest of friends), would I really want to be her friend? That was an instant, "No". And it was like the final nail in the coffin of the BP saga.
All three of these women are still a part of my life and I'm ridiculously thankful for that, as well as Agent W and Y who loathed BP from the start yet still put up with all my ranting about how unhappy I was. These five people, along with numerous other friends and family, are the true examples of loving someone unconditionally, when they don't deserve it and when they don't love themselves enough to leave a terrible situation. I look at how beaten down emotionally and mentally BP had me and I hate that I let it get to such a point. But, as with everything in life, it was a lesson. It took one chick to take me down and give me the karmic ass kick I probably deserved after what I'd pulled in my twenties, but it took a damn village to pull me out of that abyss. BP turned me into someone I didn't like or recognize or want to be, and I wasn't the only one who noticed this (Agent W planted that seed). And it was a long ass climb to get back to someone I want to be, someone I like being. I'm not a bad guy but I certainly felt like it with BP. I felt pretty worthless and unworthy of even the tiniest bit of time and attention, and it still bleeds into my relationships sometimes. I know someday it won't and that BP will be just a negative memory, but I'm not all the way there yet. I can only hope I do get all the way there sooner rather than later.
Sunday, February 22, 2015
I'm Hearing What You Say But I Just Can't Make A Sound
I didn't sleep well last night. Or, rather I didn't get restful sleep. Yesterday was...interesting, to say the least. I wrote a few days ago (in a post since taken down) that I asked someone a question that I later realized was none of my business. They partially answered it anyway, choosing to save going into detail for a later time. While I respected this decision, I can't say I didn't feel a little bait and switched because she'd basically dared me to ask, then decided she didn't want to answer. I made assumptions in my head as to what the answer(s) could be, but her reaction and sudden choice to not elaborate made me wonder something fierce about what she wasn't saying. In fact, two days ago I worried on this very blog that it may be something major, and that worry led to a day of awkwardness between us. But the evening brought a discussion that put the awkward on the back burner, and led into a pretty decent morning yesterday. Then we got onto a topic that spiraled into very unexpected territory. There was this lull in the conversation and some uneasiness, then she told me she was going to explain why she'd held back a few days ago, as well as tell me what she'd held back. I said, "Ok...", still half believing I knew what was coming next, but now concerned it was something worse than what I'd thought. When she finally came out with it, I didn't fully grasp what she was saying because I'm an idiot, but after Googling the term she used, everything came into focus. I went from, "Wait, what's that?", to, "...Ohhhh" in about five seconds. And it's a good thing she kept talking because I actually was speechless for awhile. I chimed in with one line/word responses here and there but found myself having the toughest time processing it. At the same time, I wasn't judging her or making assumptions about something I truly knew almost nothing about. I was just...thinking. I hate to admit it, but mentally it was like a car screeched to a halt and I got very quiet, partially because I didn't know what to say. But I was able to get out that I appreciated her honesty because I'm sure it can't be an easy thing to share with anybody. She encouraged me to ask questions, which I did, to the point of feeling like I was in a living, breathing pamphlet about the subject. My brain felt like a TV with a scrambled picture - you could hear bits and pieces of thoughts that wanted to come out, but not make out exactly what they were. She said she'd assumed I already suspected what she was going to tell me, especially after the other day, but I had literally no idea it would be this.
While I respect the courage it took for her to share this with me, and Fonz knows I've yet to share the worst of my own ish with her, I can't help but still feel taken aback by it. I don't think any less of her as a person, nor do I share the view of certain jackasses in her past whose reactions were unnecessary, to say the least. My life has been one big lesson in how a lot of things are out of our control, as this thing was for her. I know it's not something terminal, and I am aware it could be far worse, but that doesn't mean it's any easier to take in. And I wish I could shut off certain parts of my brain that are thinking about things I shouldn't be, things that would be far off into the future should this progress. I've never been in this situation before, but I don't think I'm handling it all that well. Sometimes I wish it were possible to just remove our thoughts and hand the jumbled mess they can become to another person and say, "Here, sort this out", so they get exactly how we're feeling. If only we could.
Friday, February 20, 2015
Don't Speak, I Know What You're Saying
G: LMAO. You called Jude a bitch??
Me: Hell yes, I did. I was offended lol.
G: LOL. You and Y have the same M.O. when offended.
Me: Si.
Y: Well, there I am feeling good when some bitch in line behind me at Starbucks thinks it's a good idea to tell me I missed a belt loop. Hateful bitch.
G: Hi, I'm the hateful bitch that was behind her and told her she missed a belt loop because I thought I was being a good friend.
Me: LMAO. Somehow...none of this surprises me.
G: LOL. Me neither.
Y: I'm gonna get you a hateful bitch bumper sticker. Bitch.
Me: Methinks someone is becoming a woman.
Y: You want some too?
Me: *sets down he haterade gently and backs away from the beast (who looks like sooooo cute today, btw)*
Y: LOL. Damn straight I do.
I'll Be Sure With You
My great grandparents were married for nearly 55 years. She had three kids from her first marriage, but it was difficult start for them because her ex was an abusive jackass who had taken the kids and filled their heads with lies about why their mother wasn't around. He claimed she didn't care about them anymore and did his best to poison the well, when the truth was that she was trying to get on her feet and be able to take care of them as a single parent, back when single parenthood wasn't the norm. Eventually, she accomplished this and got them back but the damage had already been done and would cause issues for years to come. A few years later, she met grandpa and was sure it wasn't going to last because of the kids and the ish that lingered between them. Gramps was ridiculous; funny, a hard worker, and had the biggest heart of anyone I've ever known, or probably will ever know. He was what you'd call a catch. And it wasn't long before she reeled him in. He brought a kind of calm to the family drama she had going on and charmed the kids, almost grown at this time, to the point where he asked them if he could marry their mother before he proposed to her. His presence in her and kid's lives helped mend fences and our family probably wouldn't be the same without that. Instead of having this wonderful guy to grow up with and look up to, all we'd be able to say of our biological great grandfather is that he was a drunk and an abuser (though we do still owe him thanks for the alcoholic gene, I guess). The wedding was no-frills, but the relationship was magic. They watched grandkids, great grandkids and even a few great great grandkids grow up together. There were some tough losses too, two of her kids died and my grandfather, Gramps best friend from the time he entered the family, died young and suddenly. But they persevered. Grandma was a VERY strong personality and wasn't always the easiest woman to live with, but she was it for Gramps and he never left her side. She was about 7 years his senior so as they got older, he did most everything around the house while taking care of her. When she passed away, something in him just wasn't there anymore. I remember talking to him a few months after she was gone and this guy, then in his late-80's and still having trouble coping with the loss of the woman he loved, asked me, a youngin, if it ever gets easier once you lose someone you adore. I told him I didn't know because, at the time, I didn't and because I lost someone after less than a decade in each other's lives and couldn't fathom spending an entire lifetime with a person who suddenly wasn't there anymore. If he were around to ask that same question now, my answer would be quite different and quite simple, which is no, it never gets easier. It's never fully healed and they never leave your thoughts or your heart, but you gotta move on somehow. Unfortunately, Gramps had a very tough time moving on, not that he got much help in doing so from the bastard side of the family that appointed themselves his caretakers (they were after his estate). Grandma's death was the beginning of a long, slow decline in his own health that culminated in his decision to forgo any life-prolonging measures and go be with the woman he loved. And though he was 90 years old and had lived such a full life with tons of love both given and received, it did not make the loss any easier. I still miss him years later and keep a prayer card from his service in my wallet.
Ideally, we'd all end up in relationships that go the distance and truly last a lifetime. But realistically, it's hard to make something last that long. At a certain point, that drunken, falling in love feeling subsides and you see the person for who they are; all of their bad and annoying habits, all of their secrets, how they handle problems both big and small. Things settle and they end up in a rut if you're not careful about it. The trick isn't falling in love, though falling in that ridiculous I-can't-believe-my-luck fashion is rare, the trick is staying in love. And that's the thing I sometimes wonder if I'm capable of. Getting into relationships has never been a problem, women have always been and probably will always be my downfall. But staying and working at it every single day sounds exhausting. The other thing that worries me is how Miss N and her future step-mother would get along. I saw what happens when there's a disconnect between step-mother and daughter and I'd never get into a situation like that, no matter how I felt about the woman. Anyone I consider being with long term would have to fall for Miss N too, not just me. And MOC lucked out with Gio, who is just fantastic and adores our girl the way we do. What are the chances that kinda lightning strikes twice, you know? *sigh* I'll tell you this, I should be so lucky as to find someone who will put up with my dainty ass for 55 years.
Hush
Thursday, February 19, 2015
Life Could Be Simple, But You Never Fail To Complicate It Every Single Time
Got A Hurricane In The Back Of Her Throat, And She Thinks She's Made Of Candy
More Than You Think You Are
This was the first time Ms. K took me to task and I have to admit that it wasn't that bad. I mean, I get her point and I sensed her slight annoyance at some of my responses, but I also feel like her comments came from a place of genuine caring, which I appreciate a great deal. That's something that's been foreign to me for so long. After she went to bed, I solicited advice from Agent W about the exchange and, having only heard the cliff notes version, she called me an idiot and said she agrees with Ms. K about me being a decent dude and deserving better. But she couldn't comment on the relationship angle because she's had similar issues to mine and has yet to crack the code herself. After Agent W went to bed (sense a pattern here?), I went back and read some old posts about BP. I'm annoyed that I still post about her, but I think the reason for that is I never really fully dealt with the aftermath of her BS. We split and I went into two more ill-advised relationships, never giving a thought to how the BP saga affected me. And really, all of this goes beyond her but I know a big part of my current feelings have to do with her mistreatment of me. BP was a mean girl, plain and simple. She got off on it and she mistook my kindness and caring for weakness and tried to take full advantage of it. And she got to me. She brought me to my knees, she got me thinking that I needed her when in reality, she never was good enough for me, something everyone but me knew from very early on. I told BP about my past, ish I'd rarely told anybody for fear of judgment, only to have it used against me every time she got upset. And soon enough, I was no better than her in that respect as I started to retaliate with things from her past. The only difference was I said things out of anger, whereas she truly believed the things she was saying to me; about past relationships, about the accident, about what kind of person she believed me to be. I took a lot of crap from her and it wasn't until recently that I discovered how deeply it affected me.
Do I deserve something great? Maybe. Am I better than I think I am? I guess it's possible. I don't need a white picket fence or any of that, in fact I've often thought it's not meant for me, that I had my one shot and I blew it. I love my life most days, it's better than anything I could've imagined for myself, but the one thing missing is the same thing that has always eluded me - contentment. I've never been content in my life. I used to think that would come from a relationship, which is maybe why I went into so many of them, even when it was clear I had no business being in one. And then I realized that may not come in the form of a lover. Or maybe it will, things like this have a habit of coming around when you least expect them to. I read a quote today that said, "Woke up wanting not a thing more than what I have here" and, to me, that's what I assume it must be like to feel content. Maybe believing I deserve that, rather than just wanting it and waiting for it, is the key to actually finding it one day. Or maybe I'm just a fucked up dude pushing 34 who will never get the hang of it and thus end up living the Clooney lifestyle (pre-marriage, of course). And maybe not being totally guarded with Ms. K is also something to think about.
Tuesday, February 17, 2015
Before You Tell Yourself It's Just A Different Scene, Remember It's Just Different From What You've Seen
Monday, February 16, 2015
I Stuck Around, I Did Behave
Sunday, February 15, 2015
Oh, Kermie
Friday, February 13, 2015
Cut & Paste
Cousin: I lost two more inches!
Me: You know...that declaration would not get the same reaction if a dude said it.
Cousin: lol No it would not. Did you see that guy who got a penis reduction?
Me: I saw the headline but didn't read it.
Cousin: Apparently it was oddly shaped and "too big" so they reduced it.
Me: ...Without being at all specific, how would one go about reducing that particular appendage?
Cousin: I don't know. I guess they just cut the head off, shave off some more inches and then reattach.
Me:
Cousin: LMAO
Me: That is literally the look on my face right now. And I haven't shaved yet so you can include the beard in that mental image lol.
Cousin: Men are such wusses. Women have breast reductions all the time and they're basically the same procedure.
Me: Uh, it wasn't the reduction that was the problem. It was you nonchalantly talking about hacking the head off and then Elmer's gluing it back on.
Cousin: LOL. Elmer's! At least it's the expensive stuff and not dollar store glue.
Me: lol And how.
Wednesday, February 11, 2015
John, The Illiterate
Friend: ...Makes me sound expensive!
Me: I said I'd have to pay for you!
Me: *puts he pocketbook away and goes to look for a less mouthy whore*
Friend: How am I being mouthy? I was expressing my gratitude for your compliment.
Me: Wait...I thought you were telling me to make you sound more expensive.
Me: I can't read
Friend: *closes she legs and goes to look for a more literate john*
Me: LOL. Hey gurl, I can be literate. I'll read your rainbow soooooo good!
Friend: LOL
Tuesday, February 10, 2015
Pick Me Up
Midget Tales
Flying Haterade & Ish
Dog, The Bounty Midget
The Original Shake & Bake
Legalese
JuJuJudio
Burnin' Down The House
White People, Man
Monday, February 9, 2015
Smells Like Jicken
1) My mom threatens to mail order me a bride at least once a week.
2) For all you youngins out there, Shake 'n' Bake was a product used in the 90's to coat chicken before you cooked it and their trademark commercial had a kid helping shake it up in a bag and then saying, "Mom made Shake 'n' Bake and I helped!".
W: I've found a site where your mom can get you a Russian mail order bride.
Me: LOL. Oh, she'd buy the one with the chicken. Cuz hey, free chicken.
W: lol Right? I thought you'd go for the 2 for 1 deals with the old lady in the mirror cuz hey, you like 'em old.
Me: LMAO. And the second one has flowers and a fucking AX!
Me: Why are there so many in rugs and car trunks? Like, ya'll don't need to go asking for that trouble, ya'll.
Me: There's a show about mail order bride murders.
W: Well we have a picture of the killer.
Me: lol I don't care where a chick is from, I don't want to date one who owns an ax. You and Y wanna strangle me on a regular basis. Can you imagine how quickly my Russian ax bride would hack my smartass to death?
W: lol She'd made a Jeezy and chicken stew.
Me: LOL. Mmmmmm, tastes like Jicken!
W: LOL. She also made Shake 'n' Bake and I helped!
Me: LMAO. I fucking love you.
W: LMAO. I can't breathe.
Me: lol Oh man, that was GLORIOUS.
Sunday, February 8, 2015
Good Morning, Charlie...Wait, Who The Heck Is Charlie?
Me: Sorry Charlie
Miss N: My name isn't Charlie...
Me: It's an expression
Miss N: *blank stare*
Me: It's another way of saying sorry
Miss N: Then why say "I'm sorry"?
Me: It's not a way you'd say sorry for something sad
Miss N: *blank stare*
Me: I'll explain it when you're older, ok?
Miss N: Sorry, Carlos
Me: ...My name is not Carlos
Miss N: See!
Saturday, February 7, 2015
A Dirty Roll In The Hay
Friend: I just pictured you kissing your bicep and pointing at a mirror.
Me: Look, if you want me to be pretty then I'm going to have to make out with myself.
Friend: LOL. Alright you got my attention...
Friend: I need to see this "making out with yourself" you speak of
Me: Oh it's epic. I pull my hair, I slap my ass and I call myself a very bad girl
Friend: Wow. Mine - "That'll do, pig. That'll do."
Me: LMAO. I'm jealous.
Friend: LOL sounds like we should show each other a good time instead
Me: lol That pig business was inspired. Well done, my friend
Friend: lol *bows* A-thank you
[One hour later]
Friend: Whatcha doin?
Me: Thinking about you. Bc I don't want anyyyybody else, when I think about you, I oink and yelllll.
Friend: LOL. That'll do, pig. That'll do.
Friday, February 6, 2015
Rubik's Cube
Thursday, February 5, 2015
Let Me Hear Your Body Talk!
Friend: I'm gonna die one of these days cuz I like to let go of the handles on the elliptical. I like to goof off and pretend that I am running so fast I'm actually moving in slow motion like the Six Million Dollar Man with my own sound effects and everything.
Me: I just try not to die. With my own sound effects and everything.
Friend: LOL
Me: If any of your tenants go cray cray and off you, I'll go on the Investigation Discovery channel and lie about what an awesome person you were.
Me: You're welcome.
Friend: LOL Thanks fucker.
Me: LOL Bazinga.
Friend: You're trying to knock me off the elliptical, you is.
Me: It's another part of the workout. Don't die while I harass you.
Friend: lol Let's get homicidal, homicidal!
Me: Let me hear your body drop!
Friend: LOL. *Thud*